badgerbag

At some point I feel this pull to construct narratives of my life or arcs and what things mean and then i just go, no, this is wrong, and doesn't have to be explained and everything is more complicated and only explainable by really enormous epic analysis which isn't going to be understandable anyway. And suspicious that such narratives are both blamey and falsely positioning one's self as innocent which actually only serves to undermine everyone's agency. Even if the construction of such stories is to forestall worse, more agency-destroying and less complicated narratives to explain events over time, it might be better to opt out of explaining it in general. I suspect myself highly of all those tendencies and that there is this core of dishonesty I would like to steer clear of.

I leave it to the reader to decide whether the bondage pom poms trump the conversation, earlier in the evening, in which [info - personal] epershand proposed Star Trek: the Italian City-States AU, featuring Vulcan Rome, Earth Florence, Klingon Milan, and Romulan Sicily. Also Sarek as the Pope -- and Amanda as his Florentine mistress -- and Jacobo Kirk the soldier of fortune, with his merry band of brigands, because there is no federation in the Italian City-States. [info - personal] epershand said, "So Spock isn't allowed to be in Rome because it would be awkward, so he's wandering around with Jacobus Kirk. Wait, that should be in the ablative to be in Italian, right?" "I love you," I said. "How do you translate McCoy into Italian?" said [info - personal] epershand.

Oh wait i forgot, women don't write alternate histories!

Jacobo Kirk and his merry band of brigands is so EXACTLY RIGHT!

Fra Marco the jolly, yet crusty and old fashioned, franciscan, i think!